ehm (pause) what else did you do there what happened on the bus (unclear) (NAME)'s not told us

oh no there was a big fiasco on the way there (pause) ehm had a fight on a tiny little minibus (pause) ehm all over my Walkman by the way (laughter)

(unclear) (pause) mm

oh the (unclear) (laughter)

(laughter) you what

just (pause) right I'll try not I just keep thinking you're there (laughter)

(laughter)

and you don't know anything about it do you really

no

no stupid (NAME) man he give the Walkman to ehm (NAME) and decided to eh (pause) want it back straight away so (NAME) goes to eh (pause) goes 'wait a minute' so (NAME) just went off his head and just put two down punched him in the face all this was on a dead busy motorway and that (pause) so (pause) we just had to stop the car in the middle of the motorway and everybody was swearing and stuff and

what they had to stop

so that spoiled the whole trip the teachers had to stop the car in the middle of the motorway and they ehm

(unclear) to separate them or something

mm-hm ehm (NAME) went in the front (NAME) went to the back (pause) and eh they just giving each other really filthy looks and they were going to have a fight outside it as well which I thought was really good one trip in the who in the whole year and like they just away

no ours wasn't that bad it was all right

(unclear) (laughter)

Ford Castle

oh oh you went away for geography didn't you eh (NAME) mentioned something yesterday she showed us a photograph

of Agassi

yeah

did she say Agassi or (NAME)

(NAME)

(NAME) (unclear)

but she says he's got eh a nick yous've got a nickname for him like

Agassi aye (laughter)

shame he's like just started talking towards the end

what

it's a shame he's just talking towards the end

who oh to the lads

uh-huh because

oh I was gutted

he's really nice

oh

were you (NAME) doesn't seem that bad

(NAME) wasn't I mean the last night wasn't (unclear) it was like there was they were shouting out the window (unclear) 'hey' you know I was like 'oops' (interruption) (unclear)

oh my dad's buying a cottage in the country you know

oh (NAME) said

I'll tell you (pause) who did

(NAME) (NAME) or

I didn't even know he knew

one of them

the first night that we don't go I don't go out and you go out it's a right cheek ehm (pause) been trying to phone the house all day and there's no answer because he's tried to g he's organizing it

mm

and eh it's going to it's fifteen mile away I think it's called Ovingham or something (unclear)

oh Ovingham

so he's going to bought the cottage but the woman he's buying it off is messing him around now because just added another two hundred pound on for no reason for rent that she was supposed to pay so he's got to pay it and h he hasn't even lived in it yet and water rates when there's no electricity and stuff

(unclear)

so it's got no electricity (pause) the water a pump

(laughter)

toilets in the back can y could you imagine me living in a h and and just

no

in a little cottage in the middle of nowhere and no like

I'd love it mind

no hairdryer and no telly and no (laughter)

(laughter)

the first thing I said I went 'well where can I plug the iron in' (laughter)

(laughter)

(laughter) and my hairdryer so

eeh that's like Ford Castle it had loads of power points but they're all old ones you know remember we went to stay I was I had to kick the plug on the hair in the socket to get it the hairdryer to work I was kicking it in and I went 'oh no it wouldn't work'

shouldn't really use it they're bad for your hair

have to

as I've been told by loads of people

aye

yeah so do I (laughter)

(laughter) so what do you do in history now

oh (unclear) because I'm starting the year all over again you know in septem

are you doing history next year

mm-hm definitely

can I do it with you

mm

can I start history with you next year

course you can

no it's just

that's what I'm here for (laughter)

no it's just that

we'll be getting we'll not be getting Mr (NAME) Mr (NAME)

(unclear) Mr (NAME)

is he the nice one

mm (laughter)

(laughter) you know he works ehm with my step uncle you know at the what is the anti Nazi league or Nazi league

(unclear)

and I can't tell you I k I keep getting mixed up what (unclear)

it's one of them

so he's like one of his dead close friends just been on a dead long bike ride to earn money sponsored (unclear)

he's all right he was all right

I dropped that history and then I went back again

I dropped it but

(unclear) go just like got to like take this year easy and start afresh in September

are you doing all three again

mm-hm mm (unclear) like I've wasted this year because I just wasn't concentrating hard enough and I thought 'well I'll have a fresh start and things will be better'

that's what I was like but geography and RE are going all right

history was really hard though couldn't get a my head round all the dates and everything

mm Weimar Republic

aye yes (laughter) I called that 'Whymar' for ages (laughter)

I got wrong off Mr eh (NAME) for that

aye finally got drummed in and that

(laughter)

I made a bonus because like I'll just ask (NAME) and them know how they've done the first year so me and you'll be going to them ask them for help (laughter)

(unclear)

and my dad my dad's got like this brilliant love of history so he knows practically everything about it so he'll help us as well

are you not bothered about in with the fifth years

no I I don't know ehm like there'll be some people from Redewood you know how the school's been thingied thingied

merged

merged that's the word I was looking for I take A level English and I don't even know ehm so there'll be s a canny few sixth formers there who'll be starting the year anyway so there'll be some people of our own age plus there'll be them anyway some of them the people who will be doing A levels next year will be more mature (pause) you know with the (unclear)

mm not be the

we'll not get the prats

(laughter)

we'll just (laughter) we'll get the eh (laughter) the mature people

mm

so (pause) look forward to that be a fresh start man really messed around

I'll just do that (unclear) year (unclear)

according to everybody else they're going to start fresh in September you know start their second year all (pause) properly and (pause) (interruption) with a clear head

not like they did first year

yes according to (NAME) he's going to have a brand new start you know and he's going to have no social life and everything

huh (NAME) have no social life (interruption) aye

aye he's just going to have his job

his job

I've going to do that though because like my dad wants us to become more independent now so as from today he's stopped my dinner money and he's stopped my pocket money and I've got to like live off the wages on the job I work at the weekend (interruption) so it's going to be really hard

where do you work

ehm (pause) (PLACE) Rest Home it's an old people's home it's disgusting dead dirty and everything got to clean some disgusting things

so what do you have to do there

cleaning just cleaning the place I'm not supposed to come into contact with the old people but I do and I'm not supposed to touch them I mean like they're not even supervised properly there's these two Chinese women there right and they're really close friends and they're supposed to be supervised when they're in the bath and they can't go in together and like (pause) I was doing the bathroom and then I went back in and they were in the bath together unsupervised and they're both really ill and the anybody could have an accident (pause) ehm

that's terrible

yeah so I'm as from now I'm going to have to live off my wages (pause) was this

how much do you get like

a hundred and forty a month but which isn't too bad I suppose but (unclear) (interruption) it's not for punishment or anything

(unclear) pay for your night outs as well

sorry

that's got to pay for your night outs as well (laughter)

God yeah because my social life'll have to go down but it's going to go down in September anyway with us starting all over again

yeah

but ehm he wants us to become more independent you know w when I eventually go to college and stuff he he knows that there are loads of students there who have got money difficulties and he doesn't want me squandering my money because he he he says he feels like crying when he sees me spending loads of money on a dress or something stupid like that

(laughter)

he says I should be watching what I save and I should be saving and I'll regret it if I ever lose my job so I've got to save

(laughter)

I'm not angry with him or anything feel like I've been punished I mean I'm not (unclear)

being punished for nothing

have to having to watch my money in my purse I've never had to do that in my life

(laughter)

so

(unclear) to have the money

eh (pause) there was this lad up the road his my dad says he's one of the most intelligent people he's ever met and he went to Southampton college and it wasn't because of lack of intelligence but he had to come home and go to university from here because he couldn't afford the rent and stuff like because it's ridiculous

that's what my ma says she says there's no point in going to university nowadays she says it's only the wealthy ones who can get in she says you've got your grants and you've got your loans you get your loans she says you've got to pay them back within like three month of (interruption) leaving university

most students have to get loans don't they because it's so so expensive it's a right shame though because there's so many intelligent people but because they haven't got the backgrounds they're like they've got to give up so they're seen as thick just because they've got no money (interruption) (unclear)

aye my mam (interruption) (unclear)

I was reading this magazine once right and it says the top priority for ehm students is not like what whether they've chose the right degree or whether they're living in the right place it's money you know so (unclear)

have I got enough

yes they're too busy wondering where their next meal's going to come in and stuff which I think is really sad

mm

I'm going to become one of them soon

(laughter) you (unclear) dodgy (unclear)

could you imagine me there oh you look at students nowadays and like you you associate them with being like greasy haired and

(laughter)

leather jackets and these Doctor Martens that they've had for twenty years and everything and I'm thinking 'will I ever look like that' you know they don't make any effort some of them you know and oh no I couldn't imagine not washing my hair (laughter)

(laughter) and then you ask them why and they'll say 'oh I've got no money to wash my hair'

aye can not be that bad though

no it can not but

I mean even even if they've got no money they can still be hygienic I think

mm-hm

so

as long as they keep clean

are you going away oh you've been away haven't you

I've been to Corfu

yeah

mm

well I mean (pause) you don't look very brown do you not tan easily

no I've just (interruption) (unclear)

(unclear) this tan is off the school's field it stops there and it stops round there (laughter)

(laughter)

ehm so ehm this Doctor (NAME) says to us you're going to catch the skin cancer and everything and I'm going to Morecambe (laughter) this year I'm not going anywhere abroad you know with the my dad buying the cottage and everything they can't afford to go anywhere really exotic

no right

so we're going to go like on a cruise next year like if we save really hard but I think it would be better if we just had the cottage at least well once we've bought it it's ours for keeps after we've paid the two hundred a year

right you see (NAME) and them going 'oh (unclear) and all go up like you know' (laughter)

oh not allowed to go up there on my own I've got to take all my friends with us because he says it's like in the middle of nowhere and ehm actually for a quiet little village my dad says it's eh it's really ehm (interruption) violent

where's that Ovingham

in Ovingham Whittle Dean or something like that he says eh

oh I know all the lads up there from the field trip they all live up there

oh do they well th there's no town anywhere it's just like a cottage and then a couple of miles there's another cottage and another couple of miles well with my dad reading loads of newspapers and everything he remembered that name of the village two year ago in the paper and apparently a couple of the cottages there got burnt down and ehm a person nearly got killed because like there's like a sort of little mini mafia type of thing so here's my dad coming back saying it's a tiny quiet little village when there's loads of violence going on but the people in the town didn't even tell him about that but he said 'oh we've bought it' and he says he's not going to let that stand in the way

aye

I thought well we're going to like get burnt to death but it doesn't matter just as long as we've got the cottage I mean (laughter)

(laughter)

I come back with no arm and my arm's burnt off and everything

mm (laughter) 'what happened to here' 'got burned down' 'hope the cottage is all right' (laughter) (unclear) that'd be your dad

it needs lot's of work done to it mm I'll have to drag yous all up my dad needs loads of help he's going to it's only got two bedrooms but there was one with three bedrooms but ehm it wasn't as good and they wanted two thousand for that this one we got for twelve hundred after a lot of persuasion it's only got two bedrooms so he's going to build an extra room

mm-hm

he's going to do the cellar he's going to fix the roof and everything and I'm doing the painting because that's all the thing I can do (laughter)

I can wallpaper I can wallpaper paint tile (laughter) nearly everything

mm

I can strip walls I hate that it's boring

I like doing that if you've got music that's the only thing I couldn't plug my hi-fi in (laughter)

(laughter) just take your Walkman

so yous are all

and some speakers

aye (pause) not the same like is it I'll have to drag yous all up and have a help

aye (unclear)

because I was going to help (unclear) yous can come up any time because like it's ours now but he's like yous yous all have to contribute to the gas and stuff but not too bad

(unclear)

it's about five miles to the cottage because you can't drive straight to it because there's loads of hills and that

so you've got to walk

you've got to walk all the way there and all the way back

(laughter)

there's no bus stops for miles and there's no ehm s s no life whatsoever could go round there with your hair all greasy for weeks and nobody'd notice (pause) you know

(unclear) (laughter)

my dad's got to see the professor pro the landowner today a Professor dunk (NAME) or s dun something I don't know but anyway

oh that sounds nice

mm

mm I wish my mam (unclear)

go fishing as well

fishing (laughter)

aye (laughter)

doing some fishing

I want to go camping but (NAME) won't

why not

I don't know be an experience I reckon

oh I love camping

I want to do loads of things now while I've got the time I mean from now until September I'm doing nothing I'm reading loads to try and be (unclear) (pause) what's

informed

a advantage

mm-hm

to everybody else you know I'm reading loads of English classics do you know there's more sex in them (laughter) than anything else

(laughter)

you know like but it's all hidden you know like a classic novel it's they don't s mention it and go in dead disgusting ways like they do now so like really I mean you read that paragraph and it's so well written you you wouldn't think they were talking about sex or something like that it's dead good

(unclear)

I'm reading ehm what's it now just finishing reading David Copperfield it took four weeks to finish that it's like that

is it good

it's go it's got tedious towards the end but I forced myself to finish to read started Great Expectations now and ehm I always start two books at a time I don't know why and ehm Emma I think that's by Jane Austen I've got so many in the house I get mixed up I'm going to start reading Jane Eyre again I love that think it's a lush book

Jane what

Jane Eyre

never heard (unclear)

Charlotte Bronte that was my mam's favourite book that the only book my mam ever read (laughter)

(laughter)

says it was (unclear) read over and over again

I'm reading Red Dwarf not very

Red Dwarf (laughter)

(laughter) Red Dwarf

I take it you're not doing English next year (laughter)

no

(laughter)

I can't stand English (interruption) (unclear)

my dad loves that do you know what he my dad loves about Red Dwarf is the ehm the music which goes I can't remember it though but it's supposed to be really brilliant and he reckons it would go to number one if it ever was released

(laughter)

because of all the       

aye ask (NAME) (laughter)

I know (laughter)

(NAME) lost one of his postcards away you know

mm

when we went to Bradford on ehm Tuesday (unclear) ehm he asked us to keep them for him actually it's because ehm I had this banana in my bag right and I forgot about it and it went all black and soggy and it like (laughter) all

(laughter) went all over his cards

uh-huh and it went inside the earphones of my Walkman went inside the tapes I've ruined loads of tapes because they were (unclear) (laughter) so I had to eh throw that away but I didn't realize till we were on wor way back (pause) and they were taking all that that yucky tack stuff as well on the way back as well

who were

s I don't know who it was people in the back what's it called wacky baccy or something disgusting

tack

tack mm-hm taken a tiny little minibus and they thought the teachers wouldn't smell it at the front so you know Miss (NAME) how she's quite young

did she go with yous

mm-hm she turned round she went 'I'm not that old you know I can still smell happy baccy' (laughter) it was dead funny

which bus did you take the red one

mm-hm could you imagine going in the ambulance (unclear) (laughter)

did (NAME) tell you we went to Ford Castle in the ambulance

no oh yous never oh I would have been hiding on the floor

had to spend a week in it

(laughter)

eeh it was just so embarrassing I mean the lads from Prudhoe goes 'I've got to get a picture of this'

oh and they did (laughter)

well we were all sitting in it at the time you know it was driving up the road then they just went 'oh man' you put your head round trying to hide your face from the camera (laughter)

(NAME) said she seen somebody from there the other day

aye (interruption) it's a lad I liked

at dinner time

did she not tell you that (laughter)

no she didn't didn't really get much of a chance to speak to her

(unclear)

when she came in

(unclear) away

actually (unclear) hardly used to speak much we like drifted apart but seem to be getting (interruption) talking now

what happened with (NAME) and them

ehm we never we just stopped talking like I had a few problems over Christmas you know like I just blanked everybody out I didn't speak to anybody and that's how I've got to start the year all over again

mm

and ehm I just didn't want to know anyone and I didn't want have any friends or anything so ehm I just really ignored them for ages and like they were really hurt and I didn't know how to apologize to them and I apologized to them and th then I did it again dead weird but now we sort of letting things go really slowly and we're speaking but we won't get any closer than we ever were so I'll just take things like this

you just want things the way they are now

aye well you can not really change them what's happened's happened

(unclear)

look at (NAME) now she's a nutter

aye

(laughter) eeh she told us about your legs dangling in the air (laughter)

when oh when I fell in the

(unclear) uh-huh

(laughter) they says 'sit there and shut up' so I'm sitting there I goes 'can I not move can I not go home' it was like half past twelve I'm going 'no it's not' (unclear) going 'it's half past twelve' I goes 'no it's not'

what made you go

I don't know

are yous going are you going tonight no why

I don't know my ma says she's not letting us out for a bit I've got to do some work you know

homework

homework

oh no

but anyway when she goes eh 'sit there shut up and don't move' I'm going 'it's half past twelve' 'no it's not half past twelve it's five to' 'right I'm late I should have been in at half past ten' (laughter) I'm sitting there I just fell up out I fell over the wall (interruption) backward

you should have been in bed at (interruption) you should have been at home

no I should have been in the house at half past ten because my ma says 'don't be late I want you in at half past ten' and I didn't get in until like twenty past twelve

eeh I could never do that with my dad my dad would be worried sick I'd feel so guilty I mean they they all think I'm mad you know like every if I'm going to be ten minutes late I phone my dad because like he does worry loads if I'm going somewhere I tell him exactly where I'm going it's not like because he's strict or anything it's just because he likes to know what I'm doing you know like with the crackers in the town

yeah

thinks I'm going to get mugged or        tonight and like it'll not finish until half one or something so

w w where they where are they the night like

going to (NAME)'s house you know how his mam's going out well ehm (pause) not getting home till late and my dad won't let us walk through the estate on my own so I'm sleeping at (NAME)'s anyway I bet they all think it's dead soft but well it but it's better to be safe than sorry (interruption) (unclear)

yeah because they'll walk (NAME) home

yeah watching Bambi can't wait

I've never seen that film

I bought it as soon as it came out you know and my video broke down which I need to buy a video for ehm September for media studies you get nowhere if you've got a video a long play one

mm

ehm (pause) supposed to be dead sad and that but I've never saw it

aw

so we'll watch it the night they all want a drink and that I says 'no' I says 'I've got to concentrate on Bambi' (laughter)

(laughter)

funny

want a drink

you should come out more often make sure I I go out the next time mind

I can not believe (unclear) like we were sitting there and we're absolutely mortal (unclear)

so ehm (pause) nothing developed between any of them you know I don't know

what do you mean

like you know

like

boy wise

oh the lads when I was away

uh-huh

oh I liked this lad but I'm going to see him on Friday

no I'm on about the other night man

oh the other night no I was too mortal I wouldn't bother with them (laughter) I don't like I don't even fancy

not even (NAME) you got on dead well with (NAME)

oh we're friends

but that's all

I wouldn't you know go out with any of them

oh (pause) but did you not get off with any of them

well I (laughter)

you did who

it was all (NAME)'s fault like but I fell for (NAME) once

(NAME)'s fault how

he just grabbed a hold of us he he's mortal I'm mortal right (unclear) oh        (laughter) and then eh (unclear)

two people

mm-hm

don't stick your tongue in your mouth it's not that bad

(unclear)

(laughter)

(laughter) but that's because he walked me home because everyone else sort of naffed off to walk

he walked he walked you home so you felt obliged to kiss him (laughter)

no (laughter)

well if you've said it that that's the way it came out eeh

no he went he 'do you want a (interruption) goodnight kiss' so I went 'yeah'

I couldn't do that like I could I'm not like you I just I stick to the one person I don't know I'm just I'm old fashioned call us but I don't run round

so you're going to go back with (NAME) are you

oh did you know we were seeing

aye

did you aye we're on a cooling off period at the minute (pause) no

you don't know

no definitely not

you wouldn't

no he thinks I have to t explain to him and that but he thinks eh there's a chance we'll get back together (pause) you know

no not your (interruption) type of person

but to be honest I like you know that lad I was s I was seeing him for two year and that

aye I remember

(NAME) well ehm I want to get back with him but it's just a matter of how you know because I've hurt him too badly man

what did you finish with him

yes don't know why but I did and then I regretted it and then I changed my mind again and I messed him around loads because I wasn't sure of myself so I thought it was our relationship which was lacking and loads of stuff when really it wasn't him at all who's that

Mrs (NAME) not (interruption) (NAME) Mrs (NAME)

oh so ehm I've hurt him too much and he's stubborn so eh he doesn't want to know us now he does but he's not going to you know because I'd do the same thing again which is true

well just promise him then

mm

promise him you wouldn't

no but I've done it before you know

just say you've changed

oh no because I won't be telling the truth I don't know what I'm capable of (laughter)

(laughter)

for all I know I might might regret it (pause) again

oh poor thing (unclear)

loads of people used to go on at us like 'well do you not think yous are going dead slowly and stuff seeing him for two year' and that

(laughter) what about me and (unclear)

was it I used to get the ehm eeh I know used to get the mick taken out of out of him because I'd only let him kiss us I thought 'well so' (laughter) you know I'm not bothered (laughter)

how old's (NAME) then

nineteen (pause) nearly (pause) yes

true love

and I knew yes it was love on his half behalf I think because it's not like he wasn't like other lads he didn't try to take advantage or anything that's why I liked him that much other lads just try to get you into bed and stuff

aye (laughter) I know (laughter) just don't fall for it that's the best way

no my nana tells me that all the time

my mam doesn't bother (laughter) my grandmother just doesn't talk

I just mean oh she says she says this every time I seen her can't remember (pause) 'make sure you've got your halfpenny bit in place' (laughter) something dead stupid (laughter)

what's it mean

it means just keep keep being a virgin or something like that (laughter) it's dead stupid (laughter)

my grandma (interruption) (unclear)

it must be some ehm old fashioned ehm saying of hers I don't know but s it was a shock to have that because it she got wrong my granddad for saying that to us (laughter)

my grandma and granddad keep off the words you know

oh she doesn't mention the S word

she doesn't mention anything to do with it my grandma

actually my dad's funny about that because ehm he doesn't like the word sex like he's he says there's loads of different meanings to sex and I'm thinking well there mus there can't be I mean sex is sex and he goes 'well you've got a very immature attitude to it because sex well it's just sex with somebody you've just met like a one night stand but it can be like making love which is with somebody which is more meaningful and stuff so you can't make them two the same because (pause) they're totally different' and I'm thinking 'aye dad owt you say'

(laughter) (unclear)

aye

(laughter) my mam all over

(laughter)

she's terrible

uh-huh my dad's encouraging me (pause) actually (pause) would you believe he says ehm I want to he says I'm too mature for my own good at times I'm too serious and he reckons I should live it up a bit but like he's not s like saying to go out and get pregnant or anything he's saying

try it

'contraceptive contraception' I can't even say the word he says 'I'm come with you come to the doctors with you and everything go put you on the pill' he says 'I know you won't turn into a scally' says just ehm

(laughter)

(laughter) this is my dad talking he's I've honestly I've got the best dad e ever he's like dead straightforward and that and he tells you exactly what he thinks and ehm (pause) he says (pause) just take it easy and don't feel like you've got to c see a lad for years and years then get engaged

before

then get married then have sex he says 'you should just live a little' because while you're while you're young because when you're older that's when you've got to be more serious and that

(unclear) says

he says I'm sensible enough so b could you imagine what I just I I wouldn't feel like run running riot and that and going out with any lad I wanted I said 'I'll do it when I want to not when'

not when you say (laughter)

uh-huh (laughter) I was joking with him I said 'all right well I'll go out and find any lad any lad on the street that likes us' I says 'I'll have sex with him just for my dad right'

(laughter)

so he just laughed and just not be a long time for me

eeh

my dad goes to us ehm yesterday he says he's dead proud of us because of the fact that I haven't turned into a drug addict or something and I don't take drugs and I don't (unclear) like drinking much says 'because you're quite a ehm well behaved daughter compared to the others' you know my step sister

aye

she g fell pregnant at sixteen no hang on was into drugs when she was t eleven

mm-hm

smoking when she was nine then as she got older she was getting into worse and worse drugs and as far as my dad and my step mam thinks she's ehm just taking that that tack stuff and speed but she told me the other day she's been taking that ehm acid stuff that's really bad well she's got a two year old son and eh

how old's she now

she's got a nineteen she's got a boyfriend who's into loads of crime and that you know goes round stealing cars and ha what have you takes loads of drugs and he's on E half the time disgusting drug (pause) and that and she's just going to ruin her life

aye (pause) sad

mm-hm

very sad

it is seeing my mam later on seeing my little brother

you used to live with your mam didn't you

mm-hm started I moved out ehm (pause) and at Christmas New Year's Eve actually went to live with my dad (pause) loads of stuff happened and I had to just couldn't go back there so ehm (pause) I only see my mam once a week which is dead hard because we used to be canny close

aye I remember

and my little brother just thought the world of him but like they're slowly forgetting about us you know and it hurts that because when people aren't around all the time you forget about them don't you slowly

slowly

so going to see them today even though they don't I'm turning up I usually see them after work on Saturdays (pause) (interruption) but

(unclear) going down today

mm-hm give them a surprise hope they want us around though plus it's a plus bonus because (NAME) like lives right beside the school you see so I might see him as well (laughter) you know so there's lots of things reasons why I'm going (pause) see

oh I didn't know you had moved out of your mam's

no I can't ever go back there

that bad mm

but it's all right it's sorted now

you just don't want to go back

no it's not so much I mean sometimes I want to but I couldn't after all that's happened it's it just wouldn't be right

mm as long as you're happy with your dad

took a long time to get settled in like because I had to get used to my dad's ways you know he's quite like an old        at times (laughter) you know so like I mean seeing somebody once a week's totally different than living (unclear) under the same roof with them night and day like they've got these peop everybody's got these weird habits that other people don't like or like you know so it's took a long time to get settled in and I'm slowly getting there but still at times I feel like I'm still the lodger you know

aye Roger the Lodger

yeah there's quite a lot of trouble at home now because ehm know my step brother well he hasn't seen his dad for nine years and all of a sudden he's come back on the scene and he wants to start seeing him and everything but they're trying to decide whether to trust him because like he's he's just a horrible man and (unclear) he says he's changed and stuff but like he's just messing with my step brother's emotions just (interruption) to get back at my step mam

how old's your step brother

at this school he's thirteen and like hasn't s I think it's about nine or ten years he hasn't seen his dad and when he did he treated him awful so they're deciding whether to let him see him or not (pause) so poor lad

aw

but the good the one good thing about my dad he ehm (pause) well my mam and dad got divorced because of th they got divorced when ehm I was one (pause) no hang on two I was one when I went to the wedding (laughter) right and I was two when I went to the divorce courts (laughter) it was quite funny actually I'm one of those few children that can say that (laughter) and then ehm went through a stage my grandda you know like times were hard then or something my dad told us and there was one time my dad couldn't pay maintenance he had to sell all his furniture to be able pay mai maintenance to give to my grandda which he would like in turn give to my mam and there was one week when my grandda says 'well you're not getting (pause) to see (NAME) because you haven't paid the maintenance this week' so ehm my dad just wouldn't have it and he there was a policeman walking by a policewoman who my dad knew and my grandda was being really really awful and shouting and swearing at my dad and saying 'well you've got no right to see your own daughter' so my dad knocked my (laughter) grandda out and the policewoman was walking by and eh she heard everything that was going on and th like normally they like they press charges and get my dad charged for assaulting my granddad but because she'd heard what was going on and everything you know she just let it pass and that because he was being really awkward so if my my dad hadn't fought to keep me now and continued to keep seeing us taking us on holidays and everything then I would be the same position as my step brother now and like I'd be seeing him when I was older you know which is quite sad quite lucky really because ehm most of my cousins have got no dads you know like they're

mm-hm

my aunties have just ehm had one night stands and then they've ran away with some other man (laughter) women (laughter)

(laughter) sounds like my dad doesn't it

aye so at times even though my dad's a pain in the backside at times I'm luck quite lucky to have him

aye

oh even though I've got no money (laughter)

oh

yeah my bit is like let my dad keep my pocket money so he that'll go on the cottage

is that what he said

mm-hm and to do with my independence I suppose

getting you independent (interruption) I don't get pocket money anyway

I don't want to grow up I want to stay little

so do I

my dad oh man he sometimes goes on and on he was going on last night 'when I was fourteen I had to I had to give all my wages to to your nana and I had to I didn't have pocket money and I couldn't afford to buy clothes all the time and stuff I had to walk miles to school' he wasn't exaggerating either

(laughter)

I'm saying 'well times have changed you know dad I mean like (pause) I'm not giving you all my wages (laughter) if that's what you're asking for and I'm not going to stop buying clothes just because you want us to' (unclear) oh he came in the other day and he had been down my step sister's and eh like they were talking about the fact that their boyfriends were in prison and stuff and eh he came in and he says that they'd been going on about drugs and then their boyfriends being in prison and ehm how to f (pause) c pinching cars and stuff and my dad came in and he says 'what happened to the days when women used to sit round and talk about knitting and sewing and ehm socks and stuff' (laughter) he says 'what happened to that' and he just

my ma still does that

talk about knitting

'I should really knit (NAME) a new thing for baby' mm right mam

wish I could I'm left handed and I can't knit been trying to but ehm used to be able to do those little finger knitting

oh

they used to be w end up in a dead long string well string's not going to ge

there's nothing you can do with it really

you can't do with that I used to wrap it up and make it into ribbons and stuff but that's all

a little ball

mm-hm

my brother made one of them a massive like a football sized one and we used to throw it at the do dog (laughter)

I'd love to be able to knit love to be able to sew and stuff

I can sew

and cook

and do some knitting

I can cook

I can cook cook

definitely God can you remember in in cookery in the first year and they used must have thought we were dead thick when they used to say 'we're making a pizza today' and all it was was a slice of bread toasted right

with a

a bit of cheese and a bit teeny weenie bit tomato puree on top and a bit garnish and like that's pizza for you and milkshake was ehm milk with this powdered stuff and that was it

and you had to eat it there

uh-huh oh aye (laughter)

it was the most foul thing you'd ever have to eat (unclear)

well

when they're teaching you to cook a potato

baked potato and you think it well we're not stupid you know

and they says 'how do you boil a potato you put it in water and some salt and you put it on for twenty minutes' that's what they said to us 'now boil a potato' 'I know how to do that'

mm-hm it's pathetic isn't it

they treat you like (unclear)

remember telling my nana that right and she used to think 'eeh I used to be able to bake a potato out (unclear) and we'd never think of anything like that' she says 'by that time we were baking bread and what have you' and I'm thinking mm

we never did bread

I always wanted us to do that

we got what was it apple crumble and

apple crumble which was ehm or orange and lemon cake I remember that and we never did anything savoury stuff I always wanted to do mince and dumplings for some reason I mean I'm going to need to learn to cook when I'm older you know like

proper

and my step mam doesn't like us helping in the kitchen with it being small she likes to do she thinks she's she doesn't really like help she likes doing it all herself so like and she thinks I'm in the way if I stand round watching but when I'm older I'm going to need to know how to make mince and dumplings and how to bake a potato and stuff I mean I can't even ehm know them plugs when you change the fuse things I want to know how to do them but I can't

not change the fuse

mm-hm like

just unscrew it

I I I don't (interruption) know I get frightened in case I

take it out pull the fuse out and put another one in

in case I blow the house up or something so I just leave it (pause) and ehm

dad change the fuse (laughter)

dad's going on about my driving lessons now he eh oh aye I don't know where he thinks all this money's coming from he says ehm 'oh and you can pay for your driving lessons out of your ehm wages as well and your ehm and your provisional' I says dad 'I'll be giving money to you' I says 'I I'm going to go round looking like a pauper just for you' (laughter) I says (laughter) you know and eh he says 'well you oh and then if on once you get your provisional I'll teach you to drive and we'll go round the country and that' he says and eh 'once you do that you can get insured on my car and you can use my car and that' I says 'I suppose I've got to pay for the insurance out of that as well' I says 'what happened to the days when you used to spoil us rotten and I used to get everything I want' he says 'those days are past' he says 'you're a woman now and you can do what you want'

do what you want

yeah

within reason

within reason yes

don't move in with the first lad you meet

oh no he knows I wouldn't do that it's university for me

(laughter)

seen too many women just ruin their lives well my mam was one of them and my step mam everybody it just makes me more determined to work harder in September because I'm not going to get pregnant when I'm young

no (interruption) (unclear)

that's why I don't have sex I'm frightened in case I do (laughter) and ruin my chances

no I mean

I reckon lasses aren't as naive as they used to be maybes it's just because I'm not (pause) you can't it's stupid they don't fall for that        anymore off lads

some of them do

aye and they think they're in love

(NAME) did

(NAME)

oh just my friend she went she went with this lad when she was (interruption) thirteen

quite a few lasses pregnant from our year wasn't there

mm

that used to be seen as the in thing didn't it like ages ago

(unclear) get yourself pregnant

mm-hm ha have as many babies as you can (pause) not me (laughter)

no have as few

I'm going to do loads of travelling and everything and I'm not going to

have a baby when you're about forty (laughter)

no it I reckon can't be twenty five because like I'd just be getting in my career then so I'll have to just like settle into my career for a few years reckon twenty seven twenty eight's a good age

aye

it's a bit old compared to other people but well (pause) my children are going to have the best upbringing possible I want to try and meet a man that I'm not going to divorce you know (laughter) no way are my kids going to like have to go through what I did you know like go to their wedding and then go to (laughter) divorce court (laughter)

mm

it's quite pathetic

mm

and then after that say your mam and dad (unclear) have loads of boyfriends you know over the years

aye

it's quite hard that t once you thought you were settling into having another one I mean my dad's been married three times my mam's had two men (unclear) (unclear) two men like my step dad and ehm but they're not married they've been together for twelve year they're not married pathetic I think but th for some reason they seem to think marriage will spoil it you know

why get married when you've got things (pause) good the way they are

and it's like th they're married anyway it's just a piece of paper but like (pause) for some reason I don't know how how it can be different just because you're you're married just means can't be any different from then if yous are like acting like yous are married now but like I reckon it'll make thi make things easier for them because like say when they have an argument if they were married and they had an argument they'd be thinking 'well oh well I'll just divorce him' you know they'll not look at their problems in perspective but at least now they're when they're not married now they'll just say 'oh well everything's all right we'll sort it out' but if they were then they wouldn't do that they'd just lea my mam would leave or whatever

aye

so

your mam walks out (laughter)

mm no he'd probably get thrown out his mam just lives round the corner (laughter) so it's handy

just go round her's

eeh

cooling off times mm sad

got go and visit my nana later on she's in hospital she thinks she's m might have cancer

yeah

it's my dad's mam and eh when I went up yesterday it was quite hard because like she's praying and everything and it was really puts me on edge when like it's just that probably she didn't realize I was in the room and that I was sitting there for ages and like she's doing all this with her hands and that and I'm a Catholic but ehm I just I've never been to church before I've been like

little

like like a couple of year ago I only liked the songs and I didn't think of all the stuff about God and what have you but my nana's really ehm religious and that and she goes to church regularly well she used to she's house-bound now she's (unclear) doesn't like going out the house so ehm doing all this with her hands and everything and 'oh my God'

you're going to die gran

went through a phase of wanting me to go to church like my older cousin is a Catholic as well and she's been to church since she was little and eh she went to holy communion and everything she goes to church regularly now and she's nineteen and eh she passed her A levels she got brilliant grades in her A levels and now she's doing (pause) a degree no an art foundation course and now she's applying for a d design a job in designing stuff like I've always had to look up to them you know I felt like they were ehm I was just below them because like (pause) I didn't go to church and stuff and they were more or less blamed God like it's like God was responsible for her passing her A levels and everything you know I'm thinking well that's a bit stupid because it's what what's in in your head that counts and exercising your brain like used to say 'do you not fancy coming to church this week' and I'd say 'no' but I'm lucky because my dad doesn't fall for that        either

mm

I mean could you imagine I mean it's dead weird like years ago millions of years ago when m man had just been created (laughter) could you imagine if there was just like this one man who'd made it all up

(laughter)

(laughter) and went round just bragging and s making all the        up about Jesus and stuff I mean we'll never know

no

and the disciples never really existed (laughter) and for years us idiots are believing that there's really a God (laughter) I mean we could have been like plants for all we know I mean (pause) we could have just grew from the ground (laughter) grown from animals I mean what's it gorilla's just like basically the next thing to a human being

mm-hm

isn't it so

philosophy (laughter)

mm

mm very interesting you should have done RE

oh I I nearly did that

oh it was great

changed my mind loads of times actually I d I made the wrong decision because eh only I was only going to take RE because of Miss (NAME) because I thought she was a brilliant teacher and that and

she's (unclear) she's eh she's leaving

is she

yeah

when

next like she's going to Walbottle next year (unclear)

will she not be back (pause) I reckon that's quite an easy job you know because nobody like none of the kids take RE seriously they just think it's a lesson to prat around in (pause) so they

not in her lessons they don't (laughter)

they don't really they don't really learn much I mean A levels are more serious but like I never ever I mean there was times when I used to deliberately sleep in because of RE I used to think it was really really        hated it

I love it

and then I used to enjoy it because it went through phases of ehm reading and watching videos about abortion an ehm animal testing rights and stuff that was quite good

we got Mr (NAME)

yeah oh

last year

got him for two year for humanities

aye (laughter) (unclear)

what time is it sorry I have to go soon

quarter past two

I'll have to leave s about five minutes is that is that okay (laughter)

mm-hm

right what were we talking about there

mm (unclear)

you were talking about RE and Mrs eh Miss (NAME) and that

that's boring that

what

don't like talking about that I've always wanted to learn to type and all I've just noticed all these typewriters around here (unclear) did y did you ever have a toy typewriter and used to type all the time and pretend you were a secretary oh yeah on eh Tuesday (interruption) when we went on that trip

(unclear) broken (unclear)

there was like ehm it was all about photo journalism film and television and they were saying

anyone famous there

no it was eh it was like had all this stuff from like the first ever tel eeh before the first ever video ever made right it was that size it was really really big and that high and a big massive loading system and I went 'how could you get that in the house' (laughter)

(laughter)

and the tellies were massive and then they were showing you ones now and ehm there was like showing you the oh man (pause) a journalist office you know like ehm newspaper office or whatever and then there was these phones and y you picked the phone up and there was this journalist talking in the other phone and it was dead funny and I was just sitting there pretending to type we were pretending I was a secretary and being a (unclear) little kid (laughter) (NAME) took a photo and there was this ehm filing c or you could be a news reader as well t you sat beside in front of this television screen and you you pretended you were reading the news I want to be a news reader as well (laughter) and there was this ehm like a carpet on the floor

mm-hm

and there was loads of tellies round and ehm (NAME) went on the carpet and if you press certain buttons you really looked like you were flying on the carpet on the telly it was just showing you how ehm advanced television has become now so eh I took a photo of (NAME) on that probably not come out because my camera can't can't take photographs indoors got to take them out so I don't know

mm

so I want about a million careers (pause) but I d I know I do know I don't want kids and husbands and stuff (laughter)

(laughter)

what about you

me I want to go and work abroad

yeah I want to travel the world

somewhere (interruption) (unclear)

ehm the old old people's home I work at there's this lad and eh he left school when he was sixteen like school wasn't for him and he went away for a year and he worked away and he got paid for stuff and he worked with young kids and he liked it so much he worked there for an extra two year they kept him on and that and he's saying it's a really a hell of an experience because like when you're young it's easier than when you're older to see the world because as you get older you've got more and more commitments so while you've got the chance travel

aye

so it's a shame that I've wasted this year really because what I was going to do was take my A levels get my results and between A levels and university I was going to take a year out and then travel and go

you can still do that though can't you

aye but means I'll be like two year older than the people who are going (interruption) (unclear)

not necessarily because people will be doing the same as you though

yeah I mean I'd be behin I don't know (pause) I suppose I could still I'd like to do that but there's not there's no nothing really stopping us is there

no (pause) it's your life you know you should be able to do what you want

aye I know (pause) so bored so bored (pause) sorry (laughter)

(unclear) killing each other

I'm sorry I'll have to I'll have to go now (laughter)

okay

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(unclear)

beetle meter I b it that's I beat it gate paint fatal later I hate it eighty eight bet bent felt fettle better I met him hat ant battle batter drat it cart can't carter pot trotter bottle font salt I got it caught daughter sh chortle haunt I bought it boat total motor I wrote it put footer put it in boot Bootle hooter bite title mitre pint bite it out font outer pit bitter brittle print I hit it hilt break wreck back I seek it I wreck it I back it go boot brood booze brew out loud cow site side size sigh sighed knife five knives dive dial Friday diary I've got to do it tomorrow I had to put it off he meant what he said he's booking separate tables for supper a simple sentence pick up a packet of fire lighters pack it in or beat it he's putting it off he put it in a bid he jump on the tractor he wont do that in a hurry put a comma in it (pause) bank lamp leap cat steep it lap it apron matron micro metre leprosy petrol acrid atlas hopper butter hacker topple bottle hackle whisper custard after whisky doctor chapter jumper hunter bunker appear attended occured no I did that wrong occur appearance attendance occurrence alpine alter polka staircase half past half cut automatic Jupiter epileptic sheet read breathe key gate maid may boat load I did them all in the wrong order

(unclear)

there you go

so have you got brothers or sisters or

I've got a brother

just one

he's eighteen (interruption) so

oh right what's he doing now then

he's doing his first year of A levels he did a GNVQ last year so

oh right

so he started his A levels at the same time as me

in the same school mm what's that like having him around

oh it's all right he doesn't do the same A levels as me so I don't mind

oh

it's quite amusing

(laughter)

it's just like '(NAME) get out of the way' 'right tarra' (laughter)

(laughter)

he is he's bad

mm

oh I don't mind because like it just means we're at school at the same time I can go home if I haven't got a lesson and he'll not be there (laughter) and I think 'yes'

mm

and I can get on with some work before he comes and says 'can I copy' or 'can I can I help you and in any way' and he he doesn't know what you're talking about half the time he like 'eeh that sounds interesting' starts reading it and sort of like 'you shouldn't write that down'

what's he do then

he does ehm computers and physics

oh right

(unclear) mathematically minded he dropped A level maths though because he says it was hard

mm

so (unclear) he's right (laughter) I dropped history because it was really boring I'm going to take it next year because I've only got two A levels if I pass them

okay

I'll want three to get in on a course

can you do it in a year

no I'll do a two year course

oh I see yes

I'm just doing an extra year to do one A level so it'll be all right

(unclear)

my mam says it's a good idea

mm

she says it was just too much work I think in the first place because you had to do all your research on everything at the same time

mm

and we're like in school twenty hours a week so (unclear)

mm

on top of the research you had to like work all weekends and (pause) I didn't have really much time off so I decided just to drop one for the like the first year

mm so it's worked out

yeah

mm has your mum got a job (unclear)

yeah she works in the freezer centre in the market in the town

mm

she doesn't like it (laughter) she says 'oh I hate the job' I says 'get another one' she says 'I can't it's too hard to find one' 'right mam'

mm

just sort of like go along with her

(unclear)

oh my dad left when I was young

(unclear) not around

no

mm

no I was only about three month old and he left

mm

haven't seen him (pause) since though

mm-hm so you you understand then what (NAME) was talking about (unclear) step brothers and sisters (unclear)

yeah

(unclear) for a long time

mm I mean I wouldn't go and see him now if he says 'oh I'll come back and I want to see you' I'd just say 'no you didn't bother with us you didn't give us any maintenance or anything why do you want to see us now'

mm

just probably go 'mm' (laughter) I don't think he'd have an answer for that one

mm it's a long time isn't it

mm seventeen years

mm

it's really long

mm

my mam says 'you just don't want to know him anyway if he's going to do that to you'

mm

she says 'are you ever curious' I goes 'I don't know' (laughter) I know I've seen my nana and granddad like his mam and dad but he he didn't have nothing to do with them either after he left us he just didn't want nothing to do with them either but my nana died ehm last year (unclear)

mm

sometimes see my granddad but not very often because he's normally out like he stays with his the rest of his family

mm

like my uncles and I never see see them as well

mm

very interesting

(laughter) (pause) well thanks very much for (interruption) all your help

okay thank you

(laughter)

mm right

tarra